I feel like there's this transition going on within me...
before, I was a hound. I wanted have sex with women I wasn't even attracted to. It was like Quagmire from Family guy "hello breast, legs, and ass." heh
I'd put her on a pedestal while made myself the jester trying to impress her ass. And... the thing is...
I'd though that was normal, that's this how guys meet women and go on dates and win their hearts. man you kidding me. I use think that If i make myself look like a foolish man that she's on a pedestal that she eventually love me because I made myself look so foolish... just for her, she'd laugh at my expense. WOW! good thinking huh?
Well for a while now, for a long while, I've been in some weird gray zone and I'd don't really know what's up with it.
I'm not a hound anymore and I'm so glad about that, I only want women that I'm really genuinely attracted too. I don't go out for the main purpose of looking for some ass. I go out for me first. To have fun, etc.
It's a new thing, leaving the old habits, realizing they aint worth shit, they don't work at all. Leaving the old habits and looking for new habits, being in that gray zone, I felt I needed a new way to be with women. And it's was all on me. I had to give myself DIRECTION. I PAINTED MY OWN WORLD. I MAKE THINGS AS I'D LIKE THEM TO BE. It's MY LIFE.
I'm walking in an open plaza, a mall, a street, downtown... where women are around, they can feel me, A Man of direction, A Man who knows his shit. And Knows how to get them where they really want to be. Now it's up to me to do it. To Take Action.