I was better in high school. And I'm trying to be that guy again! Grade 7 I liked this girl Samantha. Did all the wuss weak bull stuff trying to attract her. Even walked her home every day after school. Ended up giving up even trying and resided myself to being a pudgy geek loser with braces. Parents bought a new house and steep driveway walking up everyday and swimming all summer. Lost the baby fat and braces came off. Still felt the same geek fat kid! End of summer same age female cousins friend jumped me! Then started high school, met some new girls and they tracked down my phone. Suddenly I was the guy that all the girls thought was "cute". I became cocky and tad bit arrogant.......... The girl I had a crush on and walked home every day was proudly telling other girls I was her first boyfriend. Her little sister even called and told me she wanted me to be her first. I fucked it up by getting into a high school relationship! She broke up with me and turned into a wuss boy and hesitated with Women I liked. Got lucky... Still get the odd girl come onto me and are easy. Found my cocky arrogant guy when sulking in Phoenix and after giving up trying to find girls. Even today I still feel like the pudgy fat kid....... Phoenix gained weight was even fat. Moved to Toronto ate less better food and exercised.. One girl who I worked with nicknamed me after a character in a Brad Pitt movie cause she thought I looked like him! Started off moving here a little over weight by 30lbs broke up with girlfriend and can hesitate. Had a friends girlfriend say to me when I was in a unattractive whats wrong with me mode: "you don't know how good looking you are do you?" I could not answer.......... Didn't feel it! Looks are not enough with most girls.............................
You can learn to be natural and its not a myth.  |