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from what I can tell you seem to be very conflicted.

>>i lucked out with this one
On one hand you really like this girl, enough so that you wrote that entire post to defend her. You might even *subconciously* want to "settle" down with her. Maybe in reality, you really are a "one girl" man and want to be monogamous.

>>that i really don't care lots of times to mess with other chicks
On the other side, you want to be a PUA. And to do that you need to pickup more girls.

For me, the thought of picking up other girls while I really liked my current girl pained me. But I did it anyway, and when she had to leave my life, meeting another girl was easy.

So consider seeing other girls anyway while still enjoying her company.

From a long term development perspective, it would be the most rational thing to do.

Best of luck!