Spuck (re-introduction)

[spuck]

Call me Spuck.

I wrote an introduction on this forum last summer. But I was in such a miserable place then, that when I re-read what I wrote recently, I instantly deleted the post. I regret that.

That was where I was and I have to honor that. If it weren’t for the history of mediocrity that came before, I never would have pushed myself to grow and develop.

A short recap. I grew up shy and anti-social. Girls were the ultimate mystery. My teens were just pathetic. My 20s were a series of very infrequent and very bad dates that ended in…nothing. Something was really wrong with the way I interacted with women. I knew I was smart. I suspected I was cute. I had friends. I had a life. But girls? I didn’t get it.

2000. I got my first computer. First thing I did was find porn. Second thing I did was find the seduction community. It was basically one guy, then. But I jumped on the info like a starving street dog to a hambone.

I saw some hints of success. But the band-aids I found online didn’t do much for my profound lack of game.

I took a bootcamp from another company in 2006 and it was a joke. After that, I gave up on the seduction community.

What I really gave up on was being able to learn pickup from anyone. eBooks, DVDs, Podcasts, Forums, Personal coaching, Bootcamps. Everything seemed futile.

So I traveled to South America.

2007. Sold all my stuff and quit my job to escape. Find a new life. I won’t lie, I’d read so much about warm, sexy, romantic Latinas and how much easier it was to connect [lay] outside of the US, that I just resigned myself to having to ex-patriate to have the sex life I wanted.

Sounds stupid now, but that’s where I was at about a year ago. Leaving the country to find sexual adventure and romantic abundance. Wow.

And that’s where I crashed.

I lived in an amazing apartment in an amazing city in the middle of an amazing South American country. Beautiful women EVERYWHERE. Not a drop to drink. My lack of game rendered me useless. Easily the worst days and nights of my life.

That’s when I broke down and realized I needed serious help. I hit Google. I surfed and bounced and read and surfed…

Finally, I found Vin’s stuff. He had just started Drills so I read about him mostly from his former company and I read his writings as Woodhaven and I felt I’d found something REAL. I stopped combing the web for the latest, greatest church of seduction. Vin’s Natural Game philosophy was so profoundly intuitive that I felt hope that there actually was a way out for me.

Fast forward. A year later.

I’m living in the US. Have been doing some therapy (EMDR – thanks to Vin for mentioned it in DatingDiablo). Have done HUUGE changes to my inner frame. Have made HUUGE improvements in my ability to approach women (before I just couldn’t) and I’m taking Drills 2.0 in a few weeks in San Francisco.

I’m 35 now. And it’s starting to come together. Already Vin’s work and Brian’s writing have been almost transformational for me. Can’t wait for the Workshop. I’m ready for the “final piece” as Brian calls it.

(BTW, Brian’s posts are continually amazing to read. His writing style and clarity definitely keep me focused on what matters. And his Lay Reports ROCK.)

That’s me now.

I look forward to growing and sharing with this forum.

‘Spuck