Sick of all the bullshit

[JerZ]

Warning: I will be ranting in this post so if you don't want to hear about my shit, please hit the back button and forget about me.

I went out yesterday to Atlantic City, NJ to sarge with a fellow aspiring PUA and the results? I did ZERO approaches! Fucking awesome. I drove 2 hours and 15 minutes only to let my internal dialogue take over and prevent me from fulfilling my desires. My friend did 2 approaches which included a number-close.

The strange thing is that before I go out, I think about how confident I am and how unafraid I am of approaching, but the second before I approach, I freeze and completely pussy out. It's so frustrating! I start to think of what to say, and predicting how she could possibly respond to my opener, but at the same time, I think about how I shouldn't even care about the outcome and just fucking do it. By the time I'm done thinking, the opportunity is gone.

A month ago, I barely had any problems approaching. Sure, I had the fear, but I still went for it regardless. But as more time passed by, I started letting the fear take over slowly and slowly, like an evil spirit has possessed me, preventing me from reaching my goals, and I have no way to get rid of it. I feel trapped. I know I'll be fine making conversation and getting the number close, but I think it's fucked up that my biggest obstacle is walking up and uttering the first word!

Maybe it's because of the fact that I'm taking the Drills next week, that I've rationalized to myself that I shouldn't care because everything will be taken care of once I do it. But still, I'd rather not feel inadequate just because I haven't done it yet. I also have this fear that the Drills won't make me successful with women, that I'd have spent all this money for nothing.

But I can't let myself down anymore. I've spent the last 5 years fucking myself over and this is my chance for redemption. My birthday is on the second day of drills and I'll be damned if I fuck myself over once again, so I'm expected to bring out the best in me. I'm just praying for an end to all the pain I've been enduring. I'm just sick of all the bullshit.

I just want to make passionate love to a woman I'm attracted to. I want to make her feel special, as if I'm the best thing that's ever happened to her. I want to make her feel intense feelings of pleasure. I want to give her 25 orgasms in one hour. I want to kiss her, lick her, and fuck the living shit out of her until daylight comes. After that, I'd like to play my theme song and bask in my glory. Most importantly, I just want to feel alive once again.

[Big EZ]

Yo JERZ,

Atlantic city is one of the best places in NJ to pick up girls. I have nothing but success there, not to mention a couple 3somes. You need to come out sarging with me and some of my buddies. Im pretty sure we can help you overcome some of your fears and misguided thoughts. Tonight I will be in BELMAR, NJ if anyone would like to come out and tear up the town let me know.

El

[Zudnic]

I'm heading for a business related trip to LA. Since the chance of ever seeing half the girls again. Why not approach and be balls out like I will be in a place I don't live............... Fuck when I lead the conversation to my life goal. I'm going to tell them your:

I just want to make passionate love to a woman I'm attracted to. I want to make her feel special, as if I'm the best thing that's ever happened to her. I want to make her feel intense feelings of pleasure. I want to give her 25 orgasms in one hour. I want to kiss her, lick her, and fuck the living shit out of her until daylight comes. After that, I'd like to play my theme song and bask in my glory. Most importantly, I just want to feel alive once again.

Except for the being alive once again! Sometimes you just have to say: YouTube - Every now and then say "What the Fuck" and after I'll put my retro still in style Ray Ban on as cocky or more so then even Tom Cruise himself could muster! And say: sometimes you have to Say what the fuck!

[Lester]

don't sweat it, youre taking drills, youll be taken care of buddy

[JerZ]

You just made me want to go out and rent that movie and Top Gun.

[Zudnic]

Originally Posted by JerZ

You just made me want to go out and rent that movie and Top Gun.

Both are actually not bad movies. They show with a little cocky and humorous attitude. You get higher status. Val Kilmer and Tom Cruise got in a real fist fight at the premier of Top Gun. Kilmer knew watching that film he came off as having low value and his alpha ego; turned into I'll show you who is Top Male. Those movies are what made Tom Cruise famous. Its not just that he is the star and center of those films. You look at the other actors as having lower status. Top Gun he stood out at his attitude won over the female flight instructor. Its the same reason all those teachers the last few years have been banging young students!!!!!!

[Zudnic]

Side note: I have a pair of Ray Ban aviators. Girls compliment them cause most guys are wearing very girlish big all white sunglasses. I'm even thinking of getting some Ray Ban wayfarers from the 1980's as well. When I first moved here would get why are you dressed up comments 5/6 years ago. So became more casual........... Started dressing up again. Nobody does unless they are a lawyer. Said to one girl with cocky confidence: "I know I look good" and she agreed. Or if they have known me as a frequent customer they usually toss in a what are you doing: "going too jail" You have to stand out a bit from all the other random sausages. Mystery is going a little far in the "peacocking" adding pimp like funk. Subtle is best with a little style even classic. Says this guy is different and has style. The cocky and fun, you can be too funny. Also says he not only looks good he's fun to be around. When people pointed out why are you dressed up. Took it wrong I must fit in, didn't feel comfortable being noticed. Know I play with it and embrace being higher status, cool and fun to be with! Like getting women to admit I look good! And with a little fun they want to be around you........

Thats how you really have to be when visiting places with tourist things and Women wanting to have fun................ Or not so much higher that she is way below you! Does not have a shot!

[FirstOfMe]

Jerz! Jerz!

hey here's the thing , have a blast at the bootcamp!!
We all believe in ya. hope ya the best